Recently, someone asked me, "what would make you happy?" My response was, "Truthfully? A husband and a house." I felt rather stupid saying that, because as an independent, strong-willed young female, I pride myself on doing things on my own. (Its this thing called "being in control")... and to say that, made me feel as though I was weak.
Not that having a spouse is a sign of weakness, but rather to say that my happiness depended on another person (and a house).
So Silly!
It was as if I learned nothing from my Christian faith!
So then I went into this deep, introspective discussion with myself about "what's the real problem with you? Are you weak, are you scared of commitment, are you praying the wrong prayer?" ... And then I looked up and I asked God, "What am I missing? What do I need to do next?"
And God's response...
HAVE FAITH!
So tonight as I'm reading my devotion, I come across Romans 8:25 - But if we must keep trusting God for something that hasn't happened yet, it teaches us to wait patiently and confidently.
I totally have the patience thing down... (which could be mistaken for laziness) ... but I have never been pushy or demanding with God. I simply let him know that His will could be done... any day... and perhaps sooner rather than later.
But what I was missing, was confidence.
If I'm going to put my faith in God and trust that he will provide for me, I must do so with confidence. Even with my husband.
Yes Lord, I will wait patiently AND confidently. I just want to let you know that I am REALLY excited to meet him!
Not that having a spouse is a sign of weakness, but rather to say that my happiness depended on another person (and a house).
So Silly!
It was as if I learned nothing from my Christian faith!
So then I went into this deep, introspective discussion with myself about "what's the real problem with you? Are you weak, are you scared of commitment, are you praying the wrong prayer?" ... And then I looked up and I asked God, "What am I missing? What do I need to do next?"
And God's response...
HAVE FAITH!
So tonight as I'm reading my devotion, I come across Romans 8:25 - But if we must keep trusting God for something that hasn't happened yet, it teaches us to wait patiently and confidently.
I totally have the patience thing down... (which could be mistaken for laziness) ... but I have never been pushy or demanding with God. I simply let him know that His will could be done... any day... and perhaps sooner rather than later.
But what I was missing, was confidence.
If I'm going to put my faith in God and trust that he will provide for me, I must do so with confidence. Even with my husband.
Yes Lord, I will wait patiently AND confidently. I just want to let you know that I am REALLY excited to meet him!